Final Statement
As many of my closest friends know that recently I came into some misfortune with a former friend going by the name of Antonia Rae Rodriguez. Everyone that knows me knows how insane I have been about the whole situation including my family and my very beautiful Girlfriend who has be very helpful in trying to convince Miss Rodriguez to answer as to why she did what she did to me and my family. I know and understand that she can withhold telling me but however I do have every right to know what I did that was so wrong to her. My friends cant really answer the question and Miss Rodriguez isn’t talking as expected.
Now Im 36 yrs old and in all of my travels I have never ever run across a situation like this before and I’ve been through a lot in my life that not everyone knows about except for me and my family and a few close friends. However most of my friends know how much Miss Rodriguez meant to me during the 3 yrs that we were acquaintances. I respected and loved her even after she stated that she had a boyfriend after I asked her out. My family liked her and saw how she made me feel every time I saw her.
August 30th 2011 was the worst day of my life when I found out that Miss Rodriguez had been transferred out of the store she worked at. I remember the day very well I cried my heart out and looked for a way to go and see her even though my own mother was in the hospital undergoing a simple procedure for her heart. But what happened next was the most heartbreaking thing in the world when she lied straight to my face by telling me she couldn’t interact with customers when she works in a customer based business and had me thrown out of the store and 2 days after my 36th birthday she asked that i not contact her anymore after stating that we were all so sweet but I was inappropriate. My mom couldn’t believe it and sent One message to her asking what was up and I had begged her for information and she blocked both of us. First off alright block me and I’ll just keep coming back stronger and harder than before but blocking my family for sending her one message is just wrong on her part. My mom did nothing to her.
So for 5 months I have been trying to convince her to tell me what I was supposed to have said along with my Beautiful Girlfriend who was also blocked by Miss Rodriguez. All of my friends who know me know that yes I can be inappropriate at times but they deal with it and will give me a bad time because of it but its all in fun. My so called inappropriateness is part of who I am and people who call themselves my friends know this and like I said deal with it.
Last week I had sent one more message basically calling her a lying bitch that wasnt worth my time to go out and confront her face to face. I know better. She continues to insult me and my family and ignore simple requests to end the friendship civilly. I want this to end with her but she continues to ignore and I know she wants the same thing but I refuse to let it end on a lie both of us deserve the truth
So this is to say Thank you to the people who helped me with the situation and gave me some really good advice concerning the situation which took a turn a coupe weeks back that now has her getting married near or on her birthday. So Thank you all for the information and the help to everyone who was involved in this you know who you are. I do appreciate the friends that have stood by my side and made this easier on me even though my family told me early to just let it go knowing full well that I’m not the type of person to just let an injustice on my own person or my family go very easily. I stand up for my friends and my family. Miss Rodriguez needs to understand all of this and needs to understand that the situation will not go away until I get my answer.
However at this point I do feel it necessary to let certain aspects of the problem go and just go after the real prize in the answer even if it means I go to my grave to get it. I will Not and Shall not let this injustice go until she see’s that an answer is required for this to end.
Thank you all for listening and advising
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?
Love
Some people think that Love is just a game to be played while others take it very seriously like myself. The ones that play the game are the ones that are just stupid little children who dont know what love is all about.
Im 36 years old and recently found the love of my life in a beautiful young lady and became friendly with her. I didnt care what I had to go through just to be friends with her or even if she didnt feel the same way about me it didnt matter I still would have done almost anything to be near this young lady and done anything she wanted. But to her love was a game being played by another man and Im sorry to say but it was a long term gae she was willing to play to be with someone she thought would love her.
She recently moved away from me to be with him and farther from me but I still found out and did what I needed to just to be near her and still she pushed away breaking my poor heart leaving me for dead. Its a pity that she plays Love like I play guitar pitifully but thats the way she is and well its her life and I respect her decisions even though they arent right she still has every right to do as she pleases with her life but I just ask that she dont tear me in two.
Please dont play with something that needs to be taken seriously!!!! Love hurts if made a game of. I know trust me
The Night my Heart Died and my Soul Cried
August 30th 2011
As most of my friends know and my family too I lost someone that meant a lot to me in my friend Antonia Rodriguez. In the Week that follow I drew pictures and wrote letters and cried my heart out. My Heart Broke in two and my soul cried to its content at the loss. I couldnt eat or sleep for four days I hurt so bad I cant even think straight. It was so hard passing by even a package of predone Cupcakes (Her Nickname) without freaking out and crying
In every Life there’s the one person that can complete another, make their heart sing and their soul shout from the heavens and bring light to the darkness that was once a dark hallway of nothingness and despair. Antonia was to me this person I had searched for even though she was only 22 years old and I am 36 years old a 14 year difference for those who cant count. I befriended Young Miss Rodriguez and fell in love wth her after a while and a few encounters with her made me realize how special she was in my life. One such instance was a day when I needed to pick up a money transfer and was having a bad day and while she finished up I said Thank you and have a great day to her and she expressed her sympathy for my situation and told me in a nice sweet voice with those beautiful brown eyes of hers to “STAY STRONG!!!”
Even though I knew and understood that Miss Rodriguez had a boyfriend……come on who wouldnt want to date a Gorgeous young lady like her….I asked her out anyways knowing this. I felt bad but knew I’d be alright if we stayed friends. For someone like her I would wait the rest of my life if I had to just to be with her even for 1 hour. I love her with all my heart even though she doesnt feel the same I dont care I will continue to Love her….she is the one I have been searching for my whole life. My only wish as I write this is that she knows how much I care for her and wish nothing but the best for her
My heart died that one faithful day and my soul cried from the rooftop “WWWWHHHHHYYYYYYY” it said “WHY ME GOD. WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU THAT MAKES YOU WANT TO TAKE THIS YOUNG LADY FARTHER FROM ME” it muttered as I fell to my knee’s crying my heart out. I felt like Killing myself and still do to this day. This is how much I love Antonia. I would take my own life and sell my soul to the devil for a lifetime full of happiness for her and her family who I never met but thank kindly for raising such a kind, sweet, loving young lady so full of life and vibrance. She made me smile when I felt like crying, made me feel better when I felt like someone ran me over with a bus, gave me a reason to pick up my Guitars and practice even though I didnt want to. To me Antonia was my MUSE. My Inspiration to go on even though I didnt want to.
My Family saw how much I loved her and my friends could tell fom way down in San Diego and As far as New york that I loved her dearly and that she meant the world to me. For those of you asking no she is not Dead but since I have ot been able to reach her she might as well be. So to my friends Sophia Melon and Tanya Miller thank you for the support and encouragement to ask her out and to go after something that meant a lot to me even though it didnt go as I had wanted it to at least I tried and now she’s gone but not for good. I do know where she works or so Im told but reaching her is extremely hard with my family who thinks I should just give up on trying with her. Im sorry but whe someone like her comes into ones life you dont ever EVER give up no matter what you keep fighting for what and who you love no matter the cost even if its my life. I would gladly give it for her if she so wishes it.
I know deep down inside that she cant reciporcate my feelings for her but I still love her with every ounce of my being and will continue to do so.
ANTONIA RODRIGUEZ I LOVE YOU……GOD I LOVE YOU ANTONIA stay sweet
Love
Love
love [luv]v (past and past participle loved, present participle lov·ing, 3rd person present singular loves) 1. vti feel tender affection for somebody: to feel tender affection for somebody such as a close relative or friend, or for something such as a place, an ideal, or an animal 2. vti feel desire for somebody: to feel romantic and sexual desire and longing for somebody 3. vt like something very much: to like something, or like doing, something very much
- I love watching old movies on TV.
4. vt show kindness to somebody: to feel and show kindness and charity to somebody
5. vt have sex with somebody: to have sexual intercourse with somebody (dated)
n (plural loves)
1. passionate attraction and desire: a passionate feeling of romantic desire and sexual attraction 2. very strong affection: an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion
- Young children need unconditional love.
3. romantic affair: a romantic affair, possibly sexual 4. somebody much loved: somebody who is loved romantically or sexually
- He was her first real love.
5. strong liking: a strong liking for or pleasure gained from something
6. something eliciting enthusiasm: something that elicits deep interest and enthusiasm in somebody
- Music was his greatest love but he also liked ballet.
7.
beloved: used as an affectionate word to somebody loved (informal)
There are a lot of ways to describe my love for a certain person. I hope that she will understand how feel about her if I can ever summon the courage to see her face again
My Love
A couple of days ago I was encouraged to ask out a beautiful young lady by some really nice people and while it didn’t quite work out as I had hoped I am still hopeful myself that the young lady will go out with me if everything doesn’t work out. But I am eternally grateful that life has brought this young lady to me and has helped me become friends with her. Even if she doesnt feel the same for me.
I feel though as if there is certain feeling I get when I am around her like everything is better my heart sings for her. She is the one I have always been looking for. I cry when I am away from her I cry for her my heart breaks when I see her down. But She can bring a smile to my face when I feel down, she can make me feel better by lifting my spirit through encouragement, When she see’s me feeling down she’ll tell me something that makes me feel like someone cares about me. I love her with all of my heart and pray for the best for her even though her and I are not dating I still love her for who she is. I appreciate what she has done for me and to me.
I hope that she understands that not only I noticed changes in me but my family and other friends do as well. My own mother really likes her and my dad as well, she has expressed her enjoyment when we come in and shop as do I. Her and I share some commonality in what we like.
Its not everyday that someone finds that right person who can do what this young lady has done and sometimes the timing just isn’t right but when it is one has to take the opportunity to seize it and go without hesitation. I am truly grateful for my friend. I just pray she knows how I really feel about her.
ANTONIA RODRIGUEZ (CUPCAKE) I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART
Thank You so very much for being such a good person and a friend. I hope that one day we can find a way but until then I am here for you as a friend. You are my game changer
My 2010 In Review
2010 was kind of an up and Down year for me with a few things happening that wasnt expecting and a few that did.
March - Got my Drivers Permit which lead to my License which is a good thing for me but also at the same time and bad thing to especially with my family the way these vultures are.
KSM - Broke up which was almost expected but not as soon as they did but in my Opinion I expected it I dont know if anyone else did but hey shit happens right?? But I have heard a lot of stuff about that that would lead me to believe that Either Disney wasnt given those fine young ladies any creative freedom or there were problems within the ranks of KSM that started probably before they began and ended when Sophia left thus beginning the total breakup.
October - Marked a month in which I turned 35 years old and caught my first PAID concert ever when I went to see Selena Gomez and the Scene which was totally amazing by the way and she’s absolutely gorgeous in person.
Antonia - My Good and Dear friend who I adore with all my heart. Seriously I do like her and so does my family so why am I not dating her……..well its like this and my dad put this to me and I do agree to a point. But the reason is simple how am I supposed to date a young lady with no way of supporting a date or even a relationship and no job. Plus the fact that i am unsure of her status if she’s married or not or even dating if not married.
Mother - Here is a mistake waiting to happen if that piece of shit doesnt turn her shit around and start listening to people who are just trying to help her. But then again that whole side of the family is flat out stubborn and pig headed with a family Motto “I DONT WANNA” I cant wait for this loser to just roll over and die so I can piss on her grave and say “I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO BITCH”
Guitar - This is something that I decided to start to see if I could and after 6 months I started doing pretty good to a point but there is still a whole lot I need to learn and Im not afraid to say so. But unlike my family who was against it and still is I at least tried and succeeded regardless of what those chimps said. However my Dad’s side of the family fails to even acknowledge the fact that I started and usually they are the supportive type’s
I guess thats about it!!!!!
Just Thinking
So I was just thinking to myself about the rest of my Family. Man what a bunch of Chimps they are running around scratching their heads smoking their dicks off making weird sounds I cant even describe. But what I was really thinking about is how the hell have i survived in this family without blowing my brains out???? I’ve thought about quite a few times without the family even caring.
But what gets me is my Siblings. I have two sisters one of which doesnt talk to family because of her Husband who has brainwashed her and his children so much that they have a poor opinion of us and me. The other one is/was a stubborn washed up never has been Sargeant in the Army who has a very warped way of thinking of things and has been extremely jealous of My Dad and Myself since the age of 16. Its been 35 years and still her opinion of me has not changed. Her way of thinking is mostly what a bully thinks of when dealing with others. Things for her are very bad she’s been married now 4 times and been through a number of boyfriends who she has thanked me for ruining……um wasnt my fault Im not the one who screwed it up when I wasnt even around. She shifts blame to my Dad and I for Mom’s divorce from her first husband when that was a bad situation. Blames Dad and I when mom had her heart attack and stroke and heart surgery sayin she had to drag mom by the legs to the hospital. Um normally if a police car happens to drive by they will notice something like that and do something….logically speaking. What a Bully and just flat out a horrible person. I wish mercy killings were legal she’d be first on my list.
Getting back to things though I also have a brother who is MIA in Alaska who shows up every 7 to 10 years (he’s about due) bit is probably dead himself.
My mother isnt much better than my sister. Very dillusional and demanding. Always asking questions and snapping sarcasm back blowing smok in my face and telling me bold faced lies right to my face and gets pissed at me for saying something and usually rus to my Bully of a sister for protection.
So I’ll ask again how have I survived 35 years I this world with just my immediate Family???? Especially My 97 Year old Grandmother who has Alzheimers really bad and 56 year old Autistic Uncle. Its insane that I have made it this far without killing someone or myself. Yes I am a danger myself and others and I am also in the frame of mind where I know full well what i would do if the situation every presented itself. My family is very Awkward and Dysfunctional.
Just a Thought though
Fortune Cookie Fortunes Part II
Ok so I promised more and here they are
1) No-One is ever too old to learn but many people keep putting it off anyway
2) One of the simplest things about all the facts of life is that to get where you want to go, you must keep on keeping on
3) Every job is a self portrait of the person who did it. Autograph you work with excellence
4) You grow up the first day you have your first good laugh at yourself
5) It is the hope and dreams we have that make us great
6) You are the flexible person in your present situation
7) Nothing in the world is accomplished without passion
